I’ll do a longer post about why later on maybe, but essentially it boils down to this:
I need to not be obsessively surrounding myself with stuff to do with food and exercise.
I have gotten so much positive stuff from tumblr, that I’m really torn, but I still feel like having it is making these things too central in my life, as opposed to just a part of my life.
This past week I didn’t eat all that well the whole week. I drank a lot, had fast food twice, and ate out for several meals. Come Sunday I didn’t feel great, but mostly because I hadn’t been eating in a healthy way that makes me feel tip top, as opposed to because I felt like I’d “failed” or something.
I don’t have any doubts that healthy eating and exercising will be things I continue with for the rest of my life, but I feel like tumblr is making them things that define me, which makes it really hard to move on completely from dieting and disordered patterns.
So, yeah. I’m hoping to embark on a new phase of body positivity and an even better relationship with food, because it makes me feel good. But it needs to not be the most important thing in my life. Thinking about food all the time isn’t healthy, no matter how good or healthy my intentions are.
I guess I summed it up in this post, didn’t I?
I’m also putting this out there, though I know cause we are often awkward people that probably no one will take me up on it haha: if we have messaged back and forth, commented on each other’s stuff a lot, etc. (you know who you are), message me if you’d like to be “Facebook friends,” Skype, etc. I really value the people I have “met” and interacted with on here.
I’m not deleting, and I might change my mind, bit that’s where I am right now. (: